Wednesday, August 26, 2015

Being Noticed

Never feel as if I don't notice you in the hallways. Or see you playing basketball at the park. Or miss you like crazy because I cant breathe when I'm around you. I feel as if it is only me that has not reached out to you. I fell as if I was stupid and caught up in a voiceless act of teenage love that I have missed the chance to get to know the grown side of you and get to know your deep and true feelings. I'm sorry for that. And my mistakes have made all of us both pay the consequences. I hope that you'll be able to forgive me in the near future. As I am leaving this version of myself behind. I find it necessary for me to truly be happy. Another excuse was because I was insecure of myself and I thought hat you deserved better. But in the end, now and only now have I begun to truly and honestly accept myself for me. I hope in ten to fifteen years we have all grown into very mature adults and we can rejoice on all of our teen years and only grow from their.

Feeling Alone

I feel really alone right now because I feel like I deserted my two best friends in the whole wide world. Like seriously we've known each other since we were in diapers together. And I just want to rekindle the lost love between us. And get back to where we were in those happy days. Because I don't think I can go on fooling myself that I can just forget about them and act like we weren't nothing. Like in life you need true friends and I had some but somehow in all this transitions we lost each other. Buts that's all going to change this school year. I'll be a junior and i will be willing to take action in order to restore our bond of friendship.

Wednesday, July 22, 2015

I Like You A Little Too Much

I like you a little too much. It consumes me. Every breath i take and in every move i make im always thinking of you. In the shower i closed my eyes, your image popped up in my mind, i then opened my eyes and realized that i had been sitting their for three hours. I immediatley got out of the bathtub, dryed off, got dressed, and layed in the bed and closed my eyes and their your image was. I woke up around dawn went for a run, came home showered and closed my eyes and...

Saturday, July 4, 2015

Signs

Maybe it's a sign that we ran out of time We were not meant to be The heavens have shown me I've seen a brighter day And your memory fades away Your legacy still lives on even though you are gone I'm left with old pictures and letters Those are what make me feel better I've come here to say I've loved you always.